my only one..

he complete my heart..he complete my soul..he complete me..i love you dear..thanks for coming in my life..i never expect that we'll be together..

now im yours..u steal my heart..u make me saw u..thanks syg..

V..i want u to know that i love you so much..<3<3

i miss my soul~

hi..its been a while..lama dah x menulis..the reason are:

• im so damn bz..work..work and work again..
• lately i jarang on blog

hmm..how to start aa...so many thing happen to me..x tau mau tulis mana satu..but in this post i just want to mention that I MISS MY SOUL SO DAMN MUCH!!

i miss him..2 weeks ago..he always makes my day..he always be there..but now he have to go somewhere which is we cant contact each other..because of there's no line there!Oh God.. i miss him so much..

my soul...cepatlah pulang..i miss u...

everything happen for a reason..

Hi! lama x menulis..sangat2 bz kebelakangan ni..semenjak buka sekolah mcm kerja kena buat..sometimes tefikir juga menjadi cikgu adalah kerja yang paling bz sekali didunia..betul ka? hahaha...yalah kami bekerja 24 hours..siang ..seawal pagi pergi ke sekolah..tengahari pulang ke rumah..petang ke sekolah semula menghadiri aktiviti sekolah..malam terus bekerja untuk merancang apa yang perlu dilakukan esok..apa yang harus di ajar kepada budak2 ni..see..24 hours kami bekerja...belum tambah aktiviti luar sekolah kelas tambahan dan sebagainya..sememangnya menjadi GURU adalah pekerjaan yang paling bz sekali..tapi bila melihat kejayaan anak2 murid..rasa penat tu seperti terbalas..baru aku faham..kenapa kita harus menghormati guru..selain ibu bapa guru adalah orang yang paling berjasa dengan kita..dan sebab guru-guru aku la...aku menjadi GURU sekarang..terima kasih guru-guru ku atas segalanya..jasa kamu tak mungkin aku lupa..walaupun aku agak nakal waktu sekolah dulu hehehehe....

hmm..banyak sangat perkara berlaku beberapa minggu ini..ada yang menggembirakan ada juga yang menyedihkan..tapi this is life..u like it or not u have to accept that..hmm..where should i start? one of my friend..act two of them..but i think this one is more serious..she break off but she cant accept that..and for me lelaki itu tidak worth pun untuk ditangisi..tapi like the others say when it becomes to love..everything can happen..aku kesian juga..sebab aku tau dia sangat sayang dgn lelaki ini..dan aku tau she give 100% to him..seluruh cintanya diberikan kepada lelaki ni..tapi..lelaki ni langsung x menghargainya..everything bad about this guy..dia tidak percaya..dia tetap menerimanya..betapa tulusnya dia..cuma as her friend of course aku tidak mahu dia terus terluka..dan menyebabkan aku terpaksa mengatakan sesuatu yang aku rasa menyakitkan hatinya..tapi untuk kebaikkannya..aku tidak mahu dia terus dipermainkan..okla if i ja yang nampak mcmtu..mgkn aku silap..but all of us see it..none of us deny it..except her..ntahla..aku sudah jalankan tanggungjawab aku sebagai  kawan utknya..now its all up to her..to my friend take ur time..u deserve someone better than him..

banyak lagi benda yang jadi..tapi aku pun tak tau maw tulis yang manasatu..hmm..maybe next time..coz i have a dates with my amaya...hehehe...so c ya again!

promosi..promosi..

suddenly..ada seorang perempuan datang pg rumah..mempromosi "some "barang"..tetiba ja..tekejut saya..hehe


aku kalau bab2 mcm ni mmg aku lemah ckit..jadi untuk tidak  termakan pujuk rayu dia..aku biar ja mumy aku layan..hahaha...layannnnnn....


aku ni mudah kesian..kalau sepuluh promoter datang tempat aku silap hari bulan 10 10 juga aku beli..hahaha...ingat lagi waktu pg pasar..asal aku nampak nenek2 jual sayur..macam suma sayur dia aku mau beli..haha...x sampai hati la tgk nenek2 tu jual sayur..kesiaann....


ha..da balik pun...senang sikit hati..sorry ye promoter please come again..i mean to another house ye!hehehe ^^,

saya sakit perut.....aduh..

morning ! yezza teruskan penulisan!kira azam baru la ni..hahaha for my 2011 la ni ( awalnya!) haha..who cares?haha

today..sakit perut..aduh..cant do anything..x selesa !aduh..ni mesti kes banyak makan limau semalam ni..tula makan x hengat!hah amik ko padan muka..

tapi the fact is ..LIMAU ITU SEDAP! tambah lagi kalau makan dengan asamboi!pergghhh...sedap siot!hahaha

hmm..mau pg cari ubat la dulu..x tahan ni..ok..see ya! ^^,

ah..forgot to my V luv ya!ngee...<3<3

saya rindu dia...

its been a while..lama da x menulis....rindu la pula..and i updated my blog..n mulai hari ini saya akan terus menulis!hehe..

i miss him!miss him damn much...:( 

i just want to say that...i miss u...~saya hanya rindu kamu! ^^

i wish it can be that easy..

i wish it can be that easy...i really wish it..sumtimes i feel like giving up..sumtimes i feel like i cant hold it anymore...but what can i do?i just try my best..to make it comfortable..day by day ...its just really difficult to me..how shud i do?how shud i?

if it can be that easy..maybe thats the best moment that i will ever have in ma life..am i gonna have it?i dont know..if only i can say it to u..that i miss u....i want to be with u..huh..if only its that so easy.....

Oh GOD please help me..please show me the way...HV i miss u...

fade up~

im fade up~

im giving up~

im tired~

im really tired~

i cant hold on anymore~

im sick of this~

please be honest~

semua ni bermain diminda aku sekarang..im giving up! im fade up! im sick of this! huh..what shud i do?why dis happen to me?

please..aku sangat penat..penat sangat..

aku sudah buat semuanya..semua yang sepatutnya..aku cuba bertahan..im trying..

u know wat im trying so hard..

but..what i've got?

u never appreciate it..

then what shud i do?

aku juga ada perasaan..aku juga punya tahap kesabaran aku..

sampai masa..aku juga akan fade up!

im trying..

what happen to me?

what happen to us?

why we like this?

how could we become like this?

why i feel like this?

i never meant to feel this way..

but u made me feel it..

u come with the light that bright my darkness..

thank u so much...

i'll never forget it..

till the end of my life...

thank u...

face it! be brave...

face it!!be brave !!
please..just a lil brave and patient i'll be ok..
i'll be good..yes i will!! believe in urself..please..
how can i build it? can i?
i dont know anything bout that thing..
im blank..totally blank..
where can i get the support??the guide??
how can i handle that??
haw can we handle dat??
can we make it?
can i make it?
hmm...GOD please help me...
just a little help..
but..
i'll not surrender..
im not going backward..i'll going forward..
whatever it is..i'll do it..
my teamate..let us do this..
we can make it buddy!
ganbatene!^_^

2010..just a lil brave and u gonna be ok..

2010
happy new year to everyone..
happy new year to me too..
good bye 2009..go with ur memories
go with ur sadness..ur pain..
but leave me ur happiness..so i can bring it
bring it till the end....

its start now..its begin now..the new chapter in my life..can i face it? can i handle it? can i achieve my goal? our dream..no..my dream..after 3 years?
only GOD knows..insyaAllah..but i will..aku akan berusaha!! Ganbate!!^_^

once again~

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold him when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left him when I found him
And now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold him when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left him when I found him
And now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold him when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left him when I found him
And now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again


this is just for you my " He's "...im sorry...

dont feel gud~

halo!

x tau la kenapa 2-3 hari ni i dont feel gud..rasa x sedap hati saja..kenapa ya?fikir juga apa sebabnya ne..tapi sampai hari ni x tau kenapa..mula2 ingat sebab i miss ma sis..tapi after bercakap dengan dia..hati still x sedap..tak tau la kenapa..hmmm...

cakap pasal ma sis..rindu pula dengan dia..lama dah x jumpa dia..harap2 dia ok saja di kl sana..miss u be! so much!!..2morrow aku akan kena observ..fuh cuak memang cuak..tapi wat to do..itulah lumrah jadi trainer hehehe..

a few days ago..i dream bout my late dad..when i woke up..without i knew tears fall down..at dat time..rasa rindu sangat dengan dad..sangat2 rindu...terus aku sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk dad.. i miss u dad..really miss u..its too early..u gone too soon..tapi aku redha..sesungguhnya pemergian dad membawa separuh semangat ku..susah sangat susah untuk aku terima..aku tak pernah jangka ini akan berlaku..namun inilah yang berlaku n i have to accept this..n what i have to do now is i have to be strong!! i must be strong..for my mum n my sis...daddy..semoga rohmu sentiasa dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman..Amin..i promise i'll take care this family..u're always in my heart dad..u're the best dad that i ever had...losing u adalah sesuatu yang amat menyakitkan..namun im so proud cause i'm your daughter....semoga roh daddy dicucuri rahmat...Amin..
Al-Fatihah...

Rest~

wah...penatnya hari ne...gila2 penat..ne pun baru boleh rest..huh..but nvm even its so tiring but i enjoy it! macam-macam pula karenah budak2 n hari ni..hehehe kadang-kadang lucu juga..nila realiti pendidikan khas..hehehe penat tapi enjoy! hehehe... teach them need more patient...

well..kesian pula dengan jess..sakit hari ne..ndak bermaya jak..hope u get well soon jess..aku plak sorang2 handle budak ari ne..huhuhu...penat memang penat...

aduh..ada meeting lagi jam 2 ne..hmm...paling la aku malas meeting ne,,if meeting tu membuahkan hasil..x pa ne?i dont knw apa guna meeting ne if xda apa2 buat penat saja!

blank suda ne...budak di atas ne la budak paling garang dalam kelas..garang gila hehehe...tapi dengan aku bagus pula dia hehehe...dari aku ada ilham mo menulis terus blank ne,,telampau kena bawa becakap oleh budak ne..heheh...lucu pla..

bah..btul2 aku blank ne..heheh...dayang la ne punya pasal..daripada aku mengarut2 nanti ..hehehe...till nex time c ya!

new day..new hope!

salam n gud morning to everyone!!

awal2 pagi lagi dah tulis blog..what happen ne?hehehe...since when ne? hahaha since last nite la ne..ntah angin apa la ne..heheh..well seperti biasa hari ne pg skolah..murid pun x suma hadir..tapi mcm biasa sumnya terkawal..budak2 pun x banyak karenah ari ne..bestla..yang bestnya ari ne,,me n my fren jez datang awal pula pg skolah..bukan apa today we fasting hehehe...membiasakan diri la konon,,before the ramadhan..hehehe...ka ada sebab lain ne? u want to know ask son! hehehe

my class begin at 8.40 am..2day i'll teach them math ( addition),tgk karenah dorang ari ne lucu2 pula..awal2 pagi lagi da tlg cikgu mengemas kelas..kesian my student..hehehe...but nevermind its will train them to be more responsible..our PPM? owh no i dont know what happen..she didnt come to school 4 the whole week..i dont know why..maybe she sick or have a problem juz she knows..well its up to her, i didnt have rite to judge hehehe..

okla...sambung nanti..mo masuk kelas dulu..2 minutes more hehehe...c ya...

The Beginning....

hi everyone!welcome to my blog!! hope u enjoy dis..n we can share everything that we feel..i made dis blog to let go what i feel..either im happy, sad or anything that i want to share..about this life. ." life is a chance to grow a soul"..still remember this words..n i'll keep it owez..terpulang dengan kamu untuk menilai apa maksud kata-kata ini coz for me everyone mempunyai pandangan masing-masing..n we cant change dat..

okla..act dis is my first time in blog's world..been member since 2008..but i never write anything here hehehe...act juga,im not good in writing terutama dalam bab2 blog ne..even in friendster pun..to give my fren comment pun susah..heheh..but malam ne tak tau pla..suddenly its comes..i feel like i want to write..maybe sebab lately im very stressed...huhuhu

12.00 a.m oledi..i didnt even start my work pun..dont have mood,,n believe it or not i juz woke up at 10.00 tadi..hmm..ni suma effects frm medicine that i take..what to do..argh...when i think about 2morrow..my head like want to blow up! sumtimes i feel like why i have to do this?hmm...tension juga kadang2..now i know to be a teacher is not easy as u think..u must have high patient..love and everything! when i become a teacher , i know how hard it is..n moral of the story di sini,hormatilah cikgu2 anda coz..u dont knw how hard was them works to make u sucess n become a gud human..like my mom said, nobody will come sumbody without a teacher..so remember dat!..but i never regret to become a teacher..even sumtimes its makes me wanna quit..but dlam tak sedar apa yang aku lalui now,sebenarnya banyak mengajar aku tuk lebih matang n sabar in everything i do..lebih memahami kehidupan ini n mengetahui siapa kawan n siapa lawan...

sumtimes i didnt believe dat i'll be a teacher hehehe...yalah waktu skolah dulu, aku ne bukannya budak yang bagus sangat pun..escape klas,private study tu menjadi satu amalan dah tu..hehehe..berjumpa lagi dengan kawan yang memang satu kepala..makin la menjadi..hehehe..biasalah zaman-zaman remaja dulu..suma mahu dicuba..tapi syukurlah..senakal-nakal kami, 2day..kami berjaya dibidang masing-masing...i'll never 4get when we punished coz want to escape pg kluar bandar...hahaha lucunya! wel my fren i never regret to be fren with u all..even orang cakap y u be fren with them? yala i kan new student waktu tu..but i dont care coz u all never hipokrit n honest in everything that u all do..i dont care dat u ol are gud student ka best student ka..coz what i liked bout u all are ur honesty,,,and ur true friendship!! even we're not best student but its prove now..we oso success in wat we do..heheeheh..isn't??hehehe...well im pround to have a fren like u all..wati, nonoi, noy,kelo',leelunk,adeq,bond,koro, bulat,marlia,...miss u all alot! we reunion nanti ya!!

wah2..its oledi 12.31 am..wel i have to go..RPH blum siap lagi ne..matila kalau kena cek nanti hehehe..ok..till next time..remember words of the day" Life is a chance to grow soul"~ the meaning u translate urself...ok..gudnite ~ wish me luck for tomorrow...